October 15th is the National Day of Remembrance for Pregnancy and Infant Loss.
I'm reminded today of the journey that Scott and I took to become parents and the two pregnancies that we lost before welcoming Samuel into this world.
We have no idea whether the first baby was a boy or girl. We know the second was a girl.
Each person is different; each journey is different.
A wise woman told me after I lost my first pregnancy that I had just joined a club that no one ever wants to be a member of. Then she hugged me. A wise, wise woman.
So much has changed since we were in that ultrasound room at the hospital in 2005 hearing that our baby's heart had stopped beating. On that day we questioned whether or not we'd ever be parents. We looked to our future together and suddenly questioned our dreams of building a home filled with the noise and chaos of children. Some days we were hopeless. Some days we were hopeful. Through it all - we were together. I'm not sure anything could have solidfied our marital bond like walking that road together.
Today - we have a 21 month old beautiful boy. Sam makes us laugh, keeps us laughing, and drives us to our knees in prayer almost every day. Seeing the love two people share learning to walk, learning to talk, learning how to throw a sippy cup from their carseat - well...it's a good thing.
AND....much to our surprise...we have a little girl on the way. Soon, our family of three will be a family of four!
But with all the happiness we have here in our lives right now, today I'm reminded of our two babies that sing with the Angels in heaven. What a beautiful reunion that will be some day for us!
So today - if you are a mom who has lost a pregnancy or infant - let's join together and remember our angel babies.
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3 comments:
sweet words...remembering you and many others today
Sister,
I will never forget your two special babies. I love them just like I love Sam. I like to think that Grandma Ruby is rocking them for you. I admire your strength.
Love you,
Jo
My thoughts and prayers are with you dear friend. I stumbled upon a blog written by Angie Smith who is the wife of Todd Smith of Selah fame (he's the lead singer) that you may or may not be interested in. Their little girl, Audrey Caroline, died only days after birth from a chromosonal abnormality and they too suffered a miscarriage. Angie is very open about the grieving process and about how our Lord has sustained her and her family. There is a link to her blog on my page (it's called Bring the Rain) if you ever feel like you want to read it. Though time and distance have separated us, you will forever have a special place in my heart!
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